14th Day..

Today is the 2 weeks time for us le and oso the last day of Year 2007..Yen..i do hope that we can have a new life and new starting for tomolo which is the 1st day of 2008..I love you so much..i so hope that you can say that..Fung..we start it all over again..i wished to have a new life with you..Even though i think you won't be making that kind of decision again..but..i'm willing to wait until you changed yur mind..i'll be waitin you back from singapore..and i'll be waiting till you to get married with another person..i'll be still loving you just the same way..believe in me..

Baby..If you are really will go to singpore for work..dun worry..i'll be coming to see and visit you in singapore at least twice a month..i have made my decision le..if you are going to live in singapore..i'll be coming to singapore to work when i graduated..i wished to have our life at there..dun worrry..i'll be fully supporting in morale for yur work as a professional beauty therapist there..remember that..there's someone behind waitin and keep prayin for the blessing of God to you..

Yen..do you know that how much i missed you tis few days i back to hometown.? But you keep on saying those thing that you won't giving me a chance back..or you won't wait for me anymore..that's really really hurt..tonite..i can't even online to chat with you..coz i'm out to my fren's house..tomolo you'll be holiday..and oso the last day..maybe you'll go to countdown with yur frens..Yen..so hopin that we can countdown tomolo together..remember last year.? We at sg wang and huggin you so tightly and countdown together.?

My baby Yen..if you wished and think that givin me the last chance for us..and we can try to be together back..you can test my personality..my new personality..i've grown up..i looked up le a lot of thing when without you..i felt the same way when losing you in my life..Pls..call me up when the time countdowning..i'll be waiting for yur call..I love you..Pls do give me a chance..i'll do the best for you and our future..our babies in the future..and our happy family..i promised..

12th and 13th Days..

Tonite..i had a wonderful nite..a bbq nite with family..my dad and mum's frens..especially my new fren..Sumi Yoshida..a japanese girl..she taught me a lot of japanese words and my sis and me laugh only when chattin with her..

Ah..guess wut..with the japanese words that she taught me..i wished to say something to Yen Yen..if Yen you can understand..then good la..haha..^^

"Yen..
Nani-shiteta..hanaretakunai..zutto issho-ni itai..aishite-mo ii mo ikkai? li kareshi-janakute gomen-ne..boku-no sei..mattete-ne..

So..mo ichido yarinaose-nai.? Kimi-no-koto maji-nanda..boku-no kimochi wakatte..zutto kimi-o omotteru..However..kimi suki janai..But..kimi-no-koto wasure-nai..itsumo kimi-o omotteru..Itsumo suki-dayo.."

Haha..i think till here you should be blur blur le after read all of tis..you'll know it if you make an effort for it..about wut i told you..gambate..Tis are my pics that i took when the nite..Yen..nite nite..and Suki-dayo..

11th Day..

Haha..today seems to be late to drop some words in my blog..haha..looks like my mood oso good today huh..haha..let me tell one story just some few hours ago between me and Yen..at last she called me le..and i told her my feelin and i feel like changin myself slowly and slowly le within these days..i hope to change more and more..

绳子的故事。。
Just now..Yen said i'm not suitable to her although i changed everythin for her..but we are still not in the same line..last time..Yen passed le one rope to me le..but tat rope seems to be too tiny and i grabbed it..but at last it broke down le..but tis time..if Yen willin to pass me a rope again..and i'll really grab it properly..and tightly..and forever..i won't be letting it off from my hands again..

Now..my chances of winning Yen's heart back is gettin smaller and smaller..she said she feel to get one new bf le..i must be fast..be strong..Tis few days..i'm so busy of putting effort in learning to play a song and sing it together..hopin to give Yen a memorable moment..i wish to let the song to make her to get back the love feelin between us again..

Yen..remember..pass me the rope..dun just hold it in yur hand..and dun pass it to another..i'm waiting for you to do it..I Love You..Missing you Nite and Days..

10th Day..

Today..no sms from the morning till the nite time..not even a simple morning sms from Yen le..starting to disappear from Yen's world..and slowly..Yen will forget me le..start to be sad..promised to call me..but she didn't do so..i think she maybe really dun wanna contact me ald le..

However..the blog will be still carry on..i so love her..i can't even stop thinkin of her for one minute too..still bringin the hope of changin myself more and more to gain back Yen's heart..still carrying the hope of Yen will coming back to me..i won't let go..i won't just failed so..i'll be waiting..no matter how long..Yen..I love you so much..so forever..

Hope you can really cool down..and then contact me back..Miss you.. =' ( 今天送你一首歌。。“如果你也听说“ 希望你喜欢。。我爱你。。

The 9th Day..

The 9th day le..today is Christmas..my christmas tis year over le like very down..a lonely christmas perhaps..Herm..Yen just sms me for a few..i dun even dare to sms her to ask her about anythin..i scare i'll interrupt her..

Just now..i went to my k mui de house..as she wants to study at TARC..and need my help for something..after all..her mum told me something that i feel quite reasonable..and i would like to listen to her..She said that..it's really not good to control a girl so..and even the girl has said that do not find her ald..so i should listened to her and even respect to her decision..if not..the girl will felt that you're very disgustin..

In my heart..for me to not finding Yen is quite a very hard things for me..as i so love her..i wish to have her sms everyday..even a simple sms like morning..or nite nite..that's really filled up my heart..as she still cares about me..

Now..everythin remain silent..very very silent..my hp never beeps for once anymore startin from today evening..i keep on waitin for my hp to beep..maybe i should let it to be rest from now on..there won't be any msg again from Yen..my heart..seems like being peeled for one piece to another piece again..

God..if you can listen to me..i wish to change myself..i wish to change to a better man..even i less to chat with you..but i hope you really can listen to me..i wish to change myself to have my dear back..i dun care how long i need to wait..i still will be waiting for one person..and the only one..My Dear Yen Yen..i love you forever..I wait you forever..

其实还爱你

艳。。送你第二首歌。。<<其实还爱你>> 希望你会了解我对你的心。。我爱你。。

我讨厌　阴天的风
冷得那么刺痛
只有你 能够抚平所有的寂寞
昨天的风筝在角落
被谁丢到了路口
我很不想让你找到离开的理由

每一夜　闭上眼睛
我看到了恶梦
你微笑　但是旁边的人不是我
天空切开一道裂缝
直接割到我心中
不想装作脆弱
也不想爱得懦弱

其实我非常爱你不想失去你
难道我没有权利说我不愿意
你给了他的吻
虽然只有余温
可知道我多渴望抓住你的心
我知道他很爱你你怕他伤心
我每天假装开心害怕你离去
可不可以任性
求求你不要去
藏在我心里　最后一句
其实还爱你

可不可以任性
求求你不要去
藏在我心里　最后一句
其实还爱你

Just For You..

Yen..i said i wan to sing you a song rite.? But i think tonite you maybe won't be online to chat with you..or you oso won't be calling me again starting from now on..So i decided to post the song i wan to sing for you in the blog..hope you like it..

這是一首簡單的小情歌
唱著人們心腸的曲折
我想我很快樂 當有你的溫熱
腳邊的空氣轉了

這是一首簡單的小情歌
唱著我們心頭的白鴿
我想我很適合 當一個歌頌者
青春在風中飄著

你知道 就算大雨讓這座城市顛倒
我會給你懷抱
受不了 看見你背影來到
寫下我 度秒如年難捱的離騷
就算整個世界被寂寞綁票
我也不會奔跑
逃不了 最後誰也都蒼老
寫下我 時間和琴聲交錯的城堡

8th Day

8th Day..the nite before Christmas..it's been a lot thing happened again le today..not a happy things..i did something that hurt my dear feelin again..she said i never changed before..from that time..i knew that she now start to hate me instead of love me le..I'm so sad when i realize all of tis..wut can i do..i'm not at kl..i really so worried about her safety..

Today..dear said she'll out with her fren..Sam..who i actually not tat familiar with de fren..at first..i seems not tat like them to out together..but the matter of fact is..i really feelin to out with my dear today..coz today is christmas eve day..and everyone including me oso feel to have the partner beside..i'm not wan to make her lifestyle to wut i wan..but i just wan to know wut is she doing only..i made a call..2nd call and till the 20th call..there was no response..and i started to be worried..however..at last..Yen picked up the phone call le..my bad attitude is comin out from myself le..i threw out some bad words..which i dun mean to do it..Wut i hope is tonite we can online and chat together..to over a christmas eve nite..although we are now in a complicated relation..

Yen..tonite..if we can chat online..i wish to sing you a song..i wish to have a nice chat with you..i wish to say i love you to you..i wish to be yur santa claus too..but..since you've get mad..mad with the thing i done..i'm so sad..wut i can say is just write in this blog..hopin you will read it and try understand my heart de feelin..Dear..i dun wanna lose you..although you dun love me anymore..but i'll really take care of you too..really waitin for you..i'm so down now..

Santa Claus..do you know wut is the gift that i hope most in this year de christmas.? Tat's my dear..can you give her back to me.? Becoz of her..i can throw out anythin..includin my bad attitude..my face..and everythin..Although i'm a taurus..but i can change to others horoscope de attitude..Wut i wish is you can give her back to me..can you.? Till now..i'm still waitin for you to online..i'm still waiting..930pm..

7th Day

Oh..7th day le..the time i writing tis blog is 2am le..haha..dun worry my dear..i not just came back home then online and wan to write things in the blog..but i just now watched tv oh..so late then drop a few words in our blog lo..

Dear ah..just now 12am is Christmas Eve le..almost Christmas Day le..really hope to over with you for Christmas..but every year..i couldn't really make it for you..huh..i really sad when think of it..tis year the christmas eve more bad..lonely..coz my dear has quarrel with me le..Baby..i really hope that you can forgive wut i've done to you lately..before christmas..I love you..

I told myself that i wan to bring you to a place where got a lot of snow when christmas before rite.? I still remember that..Baby..trust me..when i'm out for working de time..i'll try to bring you to a place where have a lot of white snow..to over our white christmas..have you think about it.?

Dear Yen Yen..
I still hoping you to forgive me..i still hopin you to miss me like usual..i still hoping to know that you still love me till forever..Hope tomolo is yur holiday..you'll spend a good day with yur frens la..but be careful oh..yur sweet lao gong is waiting you home..waiting you back into my heart..Miss you..Merry Christmas..Muacks~ Loving you always..

6th Day..

The 6th day..the 1st day where our mission to believe each others has begun..i'm so happy that Yen is starting to trust me..and i really hope that i can slowly let her to gain back the confident between us two in our love..My dear..Gambate..dun give me up..Yur baby efungz will holding yur hands tightly to over tis "nan guan"..if we can over it together..I'm sure our future will be really good and will be forever..

My dear..today you whole day oso so busy oh..day till 6 somethin working..and then go church till 11pm somethin then reach home..i oso xiang go church and we then can enjoy the show together..I'm sorry that i unable to make it for you..Dear..i've ready 2 gifts for yur bday le..hehe..^^ one of the present you must like to use it now..lolx..guess wut..let me give you a hint.."It is long long de.." haha..

Just now i together with daddy go catch mice oh..huh..4 black mice..run so fast..aiyo..yur dear me so brave le..haha..^^ But actually so scare oh..wut to do.."Ding ngang" lo..but however..only managed to catch one..the 3 runaway le..but i put the mouse trap liao..hope tomolo can catch them la..they so naughty like me oh..always kacau kacau..hehe.^^ But now i more guai then them la..lolx..

Baby Yen..today i look more happier than yesterday rite.? I hope that our gan qing will be good like past as fast as possible..Dun ever think of forgetting me or wan to find ur ex bf ok.? Just now after chat with you..suddenly i heard something from yur sis..i dun dare to ask..just got listened le..something like "dun tell him 1st"..maybe someday after you read tis blog..you can tell me back if remember..

However..at last..before hang up..i can't manage to say a word.."I Love You..my Dear.."..you're too sleepy..nvm..^^ Erm..just now there's a concert in the tv..and i heard back the song of 陶吉.."就是爱你" and "I Love You"..makes me think back of our past.."就是爱你。。爱着你。。“..and also a song from 张栋粱.."错了再错"..got chance i let you hear hear it ah..ok.? ^^

Dear..I'll love you no matter wut happened to us..Wut you tell me about the pastor said de..i'll remember..

I love you forever..

4th and 5th Day

4th and 5th day..these two days..i haven't written anything on my blog yet..so tired and busy..i've just got back to my hometown..sandakan at sabah..Aiyo..always raining..today can't even see the "tai yang gong gong" oso..feel like going for basketball de..but however..my heart still keep on tis blog..haihz..Yen is still on the way to decide who to choose..the guy..i think now more good with yen compare to me le..haihz..

Even..i thought now Yen is online chattin with him..and feel like going online to meet her..but..they're sms-ing..let me count..today..Yen has sms me for 10 sms-s only..maybe with the guy..they have reached 30+..even i got a feel that Yen is just wan to "ying chau" me tis fella then msg me only..My heart so not sweet now after think tis matter..

Today..i've help my family to do a lot of things oh..help them fix tis and tat..really a coming soon de engineer.? Even today wake up at 7am to go yum cha with my parents..really so long time never wake up at tis time and go yum cha..but..no choice lo..the sun has ald shine till my "pat pat" le..compare to kl..7am still dark dark de..

In the morning time..Yen has sent me a msg to say a morning..but..she called me as Dear..i keep on imagine that tis Dear has a special meaning o not.? I even thought that she has accepted me back to her life..but..she's still on the progress of deciding..make my mood back to same.."Down"..Just now..Yen called me to give up if dun wanna wait for her..is that any meaning behind tis.? Wut to do..just lie to myself lo..saying that my life's dictionary do not have the word of "Give Up"..lolx..say then great la..but do..haha..however..wut to do..who ask me to love Yen so much..just Wait and wait..and wait lo..^^ Gambate!!!

Hope Yen will read tis blog lo..so that you can know wut my heart is thinkin and feelin..I love you..I love you..and i miss you so much..Last..Come back to my heart..I'm waiting for you..

3rd Day..

3rd Day le..Yen got ppl chase le..so fast..her ex-bf from Ipoh try to chase her le..Huh..He got car..got cash..got work..everythin even better than me..haihz..just like a proton vs a skyline in the road race..no matter how hard i press the oil pedal..my revolution may only up to 5000rpm..while his skyline will push to the limit of 8000rpm..how to chase.?

Really hope that Yen will do out her best decision lo..even though she may choose the skyline as her car..not me tis proton..i will not feel any suprise lo..even
anyone who see a skyline will buy it rather than purchase a proton..rite.? Really sad after knew tis news..i never cry..never..as i really have the will to fight back..even though my engine is very slow..

Dear..i'll changed my engine to a better ones once i back from hometown..wait for me..remember to test drive me..test my 11000rpm engine..Proton PM5..coming out le..wait for me..wait for me..I love you..

Yen's Friendster Backup..

Even though i can't post le every photos we together at yur friendster le..but..i will use my blog to become my personal friendster..if you wanna look back on our past..you can look onto tis la..i'll keep it very good forever..

2nd Day..

Uh..2nd day le..today is my statics final exam..but really got no mood for it..Just before now..i've called to Yen to do like usual day..call her to take breakfast..be careful when out..and today..dated with her to have either a movie which she likes to watch quite long time ald.."Enchanted"..or going for a dinner..may it be the last time i will see her.? I dun dare to think more le..

Last nite..keep on listening to Jay's songs.."回到过去".."爱情悬崖".."搁浅"..and "借口" of his concert..last time i dun feel that tis few songs got anythin nice..i knew le..Yen..if you got chance..download tis song and try listen and feel my heart to you ah..Huh..but dunno when you'll know that there's a blog in me..hope you'll know it lo..but..as i promised..i'll drop everythin in my life in this blog..until the time you accept me back..

When the time i asked you in the call..I asked you.."Yen..you got miss me.?"..Yur answer is "No.."..at the time..my heart so pain..but i never cry..not becoz it's been 2 days le..even though 2 days le..i still will cry when i think of the moment we together..i never cry coz i know le..i should be tough so that i can try be with you again..I know you miss me..but you dun wan to tell me only rite.? Or i've think at too positive le.? Pls let me know if i've the chance to know it..Still waiting you de eFungZ will keep on waiting for you..I love you..My Dear Yen..

1st Day..

There's been a long time i never update my blog..but tis time when i wanna drop something into my blog is the 1st day where i break with yen yen..last nite..i cried badly..my eyes now when writing tis blog is red and "zhong"..
I called yen for quite a few times to say i'm sorry..but she didn't really even forgive me..until tis second..i then know how important she is to me..i lost my soul..my spirit..my tears..droppin one to one continuously..Tomolo will be my final exam for statics le..i dunno weather i can score o not..i lost my intension to study..
Yen..I love you..i will not let myself down so easily..coz i will try my best..to make you mine back..i know..no matter how hard i try..maybe you won't accept me back..maybe..you oso won't read tis blog..maybe one day you read tis blog de time..you've ald forgotten me le..2 years de love..will be like sand..i dunno wut to do now..accept for cry and cry and cry..
Yen..i would like to have you back to my life..i swear..i love you forever..i need you to give me one more chance..pls think back of our sweet memories..will you just let them go like tis.? You don't even cry for once last nite.? I'm still waiting for you..now and ever..

1st Day..2nd Post

Haihz..Cryin a whole day again le..aiyo..Just think of droppin out my words into my blog again..Feel like making tis blog is my memories with my dear..yen..from now on..i think everyday i would like make myself to have a "xi guan"..that's writing a diary..lolx..public diary.?

My dear has rejected to be with me again le..maybe no matter how hard i change myself..we won't be back to the same relation like past le..really regret..aiyo~..cry again..in this blog..i'll write down everyday wut i did..so that even though my dear can't know wut i do..i no sms her..no contact her..she still can know wut i'm into..wut i've changed..and wut i've been doing around the day..

If she read my blog even only once..i feel so grateful..becoz she still cares about me..maybe i should really let go her..let her to have a better life..haihz..just now..really doin the hardest thing in my life..deleting the memories from the friendster of hers..let me feedback the time we together..how happy..aiks..swt..no matter how..

Waiting is only the thing i can do for her lo..just to let her know that..the door of my heart will be always open for her..Her sis..jessie said..if i really wan her to be good..let her go..and come back when you think it's time..when you think you still love her and after you've changed..even though next time you can't change..maybe she'll appreciate wut i done for her..and back to my heart..haha..really hope that will be true asap..can't even wait for that moment..but the time..maybe yen has her better man to take care her le..wut to do..

Aiks..always come to this moment..the bad song i listenin will pops up..the song of "非你莫屬" makes me cry again..walao..how many times ald i cried..lolx..i'll wake up..and be a better man..Dear..wait for me..i'm coming back to you..wait me..remember me..and miss me..I love you..

Exam..Huh..

Exam le..haihz..12 days more..math and statics are waiting for me now..math..only study till half and half more..blur blur liao..T.T sei foh lo..~ really wish someone will be at my side to help and teach me tis and tat..but..the fact is only study alone..and listen to songs lo while doing the exercise la..haihz..

Aiming for a high marks for both subjects..keepin my CGPA in 3.0.? Can I.? I so stupid..but i willing to work hard..but..no guideline..Aiyo..God ah.~ pls send me an angel to guide me la.."kau ha lei la"..!! After exam..Basic Electronic coming in the next sem le..need to retake..aiyo~ later being laughed..wut to do.."ding ngang siong" lo..telling myself must get an A for it.."YES!" eFungZ..you can do it.!! Yeah!!

However..after thinking that need to work on the weekends..really feelin not good..SONY STYLE..i miss you..haha..going to come back to you when got chance..AMWAY.."Shooooooo!!!" Go away..!! You big lier..say tis can tat can..say can be diamond..aiyo..21% oso hard to score nia~ sot sot de..better go for UNIT TRUST..lolx...can earn money without working hard..haha..tat's my attitude..lolx..

Yee..so qi guai lo..i bluff so many things..got ppl see o not da.? Later ppl laugh me "yi mou lun ci" then i paiseh lo..lolx..nvm la..just let myself "shen" all my hardness and heart de words out lo..haha.."shu fuk sai"..haha..study lu!!~~~^^